Useless
In an ancient terraced house, Mildred sat beside the dusty glass, gazing out onto the winding lane, her mind wandering strange corridors. She didnt feel quite right, too often drifting asleep in her shift, worried she might not find her way back in the morning. She wasnt exactly old, but illness pays no mind to birthdays. Her health had faltered after she buried her husband, left with just her two sons for company. Back then, it seemed she might recovershe worked, carried on as folks do, but as years curled past, her body felt less and less her own.
Her sons couldnt have been more differentHarold, the eldest, always measured, quiet, good-hearted. The more he aged, the deeper he fell into books, breezed through his lessons at school, always eager to help his mother however he could.
Then there was Alfie, the village called him by his pet name, Alf. He never sat still, more hare than boy. Mischief was his shadow; if anything in the village went missing or awrya sheep untied, an orchard raided, flowerbeds trampledAlf was sure to be at the centre, hair wild, laughter echoing.
Mildred loved her boys equally, knowing how different they were. She often scolded Alf:
Look at your brother, Harold. The teachers only sing his praises. And you? I barely dare turn up at the market, never had so much as a good word said about your antics.
Alf would just shrug, then vanish through the kitchen garden as if chased by foxes. When Harold finished school, he moved off to university in the city, plenty of hope in his pocket, and not much else. He earned his engineers diploma and returned home to show Mildred, who was bursting with pride.
Mum, Im getting married soon, Harold said, splitting firewood in the yard while she tried to carry logs for the scuttlehe wouldnt let her.
Mum, Im a great strapping bloke, you shouldnt be lugging firewood about. Sitlet me.
Alright, love, alright… Im just happy youve found a girl. Lovely news. I do hope I can meet her.
Youll see her at the wedding, just a month away.
Alf came in from work, eyebrows raised.
Youve chopped and stacked the whole lot of logs while Ive been at workblimey, mate. Never could find time for that myself. Alf had never finished school, reallygave up long before the end, signed on as a farmhand and tractor driver instead. Still the same, never managed repairs unless nagged, always reluctant, always drifting. Deep thoughts never slowed him down.
Their father had left two houses behindone old, hunched over behind hedges with a porch that moaned and doors leaning sideways. None had lived there for years; only the cats used it, slipping through holes in the floorboards. Next was the good house, their home. Now just Mildred and Alf rattled around in it.
Mildred and Alf rode the train to the city for Harolds wedding. She thought the bride, Emily, was a charming girlgentle, cheerful, a real English rose. The villagers were all ears when Mildred got home, eager to hear about the new daughter-in-law.
Shes lovely, is our Emily. Harolds found himself a treasure. Kind, gentle, and ever so sweet. Promised theyll visit in the summer, shed tell the neighbours.
One evening, Alf arrived home with a flourish.
Mum, Ive decided. Im getting married too.
Mildred barely believed him. Alf had always been a wanderer, living wildshed begun to think hed never settle.
Well, thank heavens, Alf. Get marriedmaybe therell be another pair of hands around, tis more than I can manage these days, not working anymore, the pension only stretches so far. She peered at him, Is she from the village, then? I havent seen you stepping out with anyone…
Not from here. From the next village overher names Cheryl. Shes a bit of a live wire, but that suits me fine, Alf grinned.
The whole village was shockednone thought Cheryl would ever manage to rope someone in, least of all Alf. Not that Alf understood it himself.
The wedding was cobbled together, but Harold could not attendEmily was about to give birth, twins, so he couldnt risk leaving her. He rang:
Congrats, Alfiebe happy, mate. Sent you some moneywill visit soon as I can. Say hi to Mum.
As soon as the bunting was down, Cheryl took up her rule of the house. Mother-in-law was ill, husband no backbonewhatever Cheryl said, Alf did. She scared no one, not even herself; in her old village no man dared go near, too brash, too bold. Mildred never found her footing with Cheryl.
At first it all felt rightearly mornings, milking the Jersey, feeding the hens, Alf fetching buckets of water. Cheryl bustled about the place, nimble, clever, but as weeks turned into seasons under the same roof as Mildred, the new brides face darkened.
Alf, look at your mum. Shes so carelessspills the milk again, Im not her skivvy! The crumbs, the way she eatsby the time shes done its all on the floor, tea splashed everywhere, sugar all over the table with those shaking hands. She left the soup uncovered, fliesll be all over! Ridiculous. She ought not to be in the kitchen at all.
Alf knewhis mother was ill, her hands trembled, her mind wandered.
Cheryl, shes no strangershes my mum, Alf mumbled half-heartedly. What could we do… we cant just boot her out of the house.
Well thats not what Im saying, barked Cheryl, but youve got that old house out back, she could live there. Its old, but the roofs solid. Well bring food, check in, patch the stove up.
Alf sighed. That house was damp, the floorboards groaned and rotted through.
Its cruel in winter, Alf weakly protested.
Youll mend it, patch the chimney, do some work. Itll be fine with a little effort, Cheryl insisted, growing firmer by the hour.
Mildred overheard them plotting, though the ideas swam through her mind like ribbons in a fog. Out her window she watched Alf, axe in hand, carting tools to the old house. In a fortnight, he announced it was ready. It was gloomy and cold, but it would have to do.
Mum, said Alf quietly, why dont you get your things together and move into the old place? Ive fixed it up so its nice and warm, youll have your own space, less confusion between you and Cheryl. Ill come round, bring you food, anything you need. Its for your own comfort.
Mildred didnt argue, just packed her meagre belongings in silence. Alf carried it all across, mumbled, Ill see you tomorrow. Were just a stones throw away.
But Alf hardly visited. Mildred kept the fire going as best she could, made what food she could stomach; Alf brought potatoes, milk, a loaf, a bit of sugar. She shrank from the villagers, embarrassedno one to ask questions if she stayed inside. She sat, always by the window, sometimes shuffling to the yard, listening in the dusk for footsteps that never came. Deep autumn fell and with it her healthher heart shivered, hands shook, mind drifting further each day. Some nights she forgot to bolt the door or stoke the fire; some days she walked outside with no idea why.
How did it come to this? she wondered. My own son, turning me out. Did I wrong him, once? Cheryl and I never had cross words.
She thought more of Harold, wondering if Emily had had the babies. She missed his voice. Once, hed call through Alfs dog-eared mobile, but now, not a word.
Truth was, Harold was buried in twin chaos, barely time for sleep, but still he would ring Alf.
Alf, hows Mum?
All good, mate, she gets outside for a bit of air.
Let me speak to her, Id love to tell her about the twins.
Shes not ingone for a stroll, Alf lied.
Is she really alright? Buy her a mobile, something easyI’ll send you the money.
She doesnt need oneshes fine. Were all good.
Alf lied, plain as rain. Lied to his brother as he once lied to his mumskipping lessons, breaking fences. He never felt guiltynot about the lies, not about how it ended up. Cheryl only encouraged him.
Did the right thing, shed say, and Alf began to believe it.
Mildred waited by her window for something undefined, Alfs visits nothing more than passing gusts. All the while, Harolds worry grew in the citythe gnawing sense something was wrong.
Harold, stop fretting, Emily said, go down to the village and see her. Ill manage the boys for a spell, Mum can help me. You wont be gone long.
You might be right. She hasnt spoken to me in monthsAlfs always got some storyshes asleep, or busy.
Harolds visit was unannounced. When the car slowed outside, Alf was white as chalk, flying out the door.
Wheres Mum? Harolds voice was cold, lips tight.
Shes… in the house out back, Alf nearly whispered.
What? Harolds shout rang like a church bell. You dumped her in that hovel? I asked you to care for herI sent you money! Why did you lie?
Cheryl appeared, hair wild, eyes blazing.
What did you expect? Shes a nuisance, that old bat. Drops everything, hands like windchimesbest for all she keeps to herself. We didnt leave her in the street, did we?
Dont speak, Harold shot back, his tone as sharp as frost.
He stepped toward Alf with raised hand; Alf stepped aside, cowering close to Cheryl.
Youre no brotherjust a coward. No heart in your chest.
Alf looked only at his shoes. Harold went quietly to the old house. Through the mottled window, Mildred spotted Harold and feared for Alf, though her heart soared to see her elder boy.
My dear Harold, how come youre here? Must have your hands full back at home, what with twins and all.
The place reeked of mildew. Mildred stood swaddled in an old shawl.
Harold embraced her.
Forgive me, Mum. I should have seen through it. Trusted Alfs words too easily. Im sorry.
Hows Emily, the babies? Growing well?
Yes, Mum. Youve got two grandsons, Michael and Anthony. Youll meet them soon.
Within an hour, Harold bundled Mildred in his car, heading back to the city. She left without goodbye; neither Alf nor Cheryl emerged to see her off.
Now Mildred cares for her grandsons, nestling her bed in their room. The boys remind her so dearly of Harold as a lad. She is warm and loved, but sometimes finds herself glancing toward the window, hopinghoping Alf will arrive and say sorry. But it is a foolish dream. He will not come.
Thank you for reading, and for your kindness. Wishing you happiness in your own journey.






