Our Quiet Day
Claire closed her laptop and glanced over at Tom. He was standing by the window, a mug in hand, gazing out into the garden.
Ive booked Thursday, she said. Eleven oclock. We need to get there half an hour early.
He turned, nodded.
Alright. Ill take the morning off.
She waited, but he said nothing more. Claire got up and joined him by the window.
Youre absolutely sure you dont want to invite anyone?
No, Tom replied, perfectly calm. We agreed, didnt we?
She nodded. They really had agreed: three years together, both previously married, both grown-ups with children and jobs. The registry office stamp was purely practicalinheritance, insurance, being allowed to sign each others paperwork. No show, no dress, no grand do with a hundred people. Just registration. Theyd submitted the paperwork a month before, as one does, and this was just the next step.
Alright then, Ill tell Mum tomorrow, Claire said.
Tom set his mug on the sill and hugged her.
Itll be fine, he said.
She wasnt half as sure.
Her mother called on Saturday, while Claire was at Sainsburys. She was in the queue at the checkout, phone pressed to her ear, listening as Mums tone rose ever so slightly.
So youre getting married mid-week, with no family, and you cant even give us a proper heads up?
Mum, I am giving you a heads up. A whole weeks worth.
A weeks not a warning, its just dropping a bombshell. Claire, Im your mother. Toms a decent chap, why are you hiding?
Claire squeezed her phone.
Were not hiding. We just dont want a big wedding. Were both in our forties, its the second time for each of us. Were fine without the fuss.
So Im a guest now? Mums voice was wobbling. Just a guest?
Mum, please dont.
Are you ashamed of me?
No. We just want to do things differently.
Mum went quietdangerously quietfor a few seconds and then coldly replied, Do as you please. But dont be upset if people think youve something to hide.
She hung up. Claire started unloading her shopping, feeling a little knot inside.
Tom heard about his own mothers reaction from his sister. She texted him in the evening: Mums upset. Says you didnt invite her to your wedding. Why?
Tom called his mother. The conversation was brief.
You couldve just told me, she sighed, weary. Id have baked a Victoria sponge. Or bought some flowers. Something.
Mum, were not having a celebration.
Its not about the party. Im your mother. I ought to be there.
Tom stared at his phone.
Im sorry, he said. But weve made up our minds.
Dont expect me to be pleased about it, she replied, then put down the phone.
Claires friends launched a debate in the group chat. Sophie wrote, Clairie, come on! No dress, no photos? Its YOUR day!
Another piped in, At least go to a café after? We could join, just to celebrate.
Claire typed a reply, deleted it, tried again.
Girls, thank you. But honestly, we dont need a fuss. Were just signing the papers, thats all.
Sophie replied almost instantly, I get it. But Im sad. I wanted to be happy for you in person.
Claire turned off her phone and placed it on the table. Tom was next to her, reading something on his tablet.
Theyre upset, Claire said.
Who?
Friends. My mum. Your mum. Everyone.
Tom looked up.
Its our choice, he said. Not theirs.
I know, Claire rubbed her face. It just feels rubbish.
Do you feel rubbish, or do you regret it?
She considered it.
I dont know.
Claires daughter, Lucy, popped in on Monday evening. Twenty-three, sharing a flat with her mate, working for a design studio. Claire brewed some tea and they sat in the kitchen.
Mum, why are you even bothering with the wedding bit? Lucy asked, unspooling her scarf. You live together already.
Claire explained the paperwork, the insurance, the day-to-day practicality. Lucy listened, nodded.
Alright, makes sense, she said. But why no guests?
Because neither of us want all the drama.
Lucy was quiet a moment.
Nan called me, she said. She cried. Said youre pushing her away.
Claire gripped her mug.
Im not. I just dont want to do what I dont need.
But she needs it, Lucy said quietly. She just wants to be part of your life. Not about the wedding. Just being there.
Claire looked at her daughter and said nothing.
On Wednesday morning Tom went to work, where his colleague Jack immediately asked:
Heard youre getting hitched tomorrow?
Tom was taken aback.
How?
Your sister told my wife. They go to the same yoga. Congratulations, by the way. So why didnt you invite anyone?
Tom shrugged.
Just keeping it low-key.
Jack grinned.
Mysterious as ever, Tom. Well, best of luck.
Tom sat down and fired up his computer. The word mysterious stuck in his head like a splinter.
Wednesday night, the evening before the wedding, Claire and Tom had their first proper spat. No shouting, just heavy air.
Claire said, Maybe we should invite just the parents? To the registry office. Theyll only stand by.
Tom looked up from his phone.
Youre serious?
Yes. Im tired of feeling guilty.
You feel guilty because theyre making you. Its emotional blackmail, Claire.
Its not blackmail. Shes my mum. She wants to be there when I get married.
Youre not getting married. Youre filling in a form. We agreed that were doing it for us, not them.
Claire paced the living room.
Maybe I want them there. Maybe it matters to me that Mum sees Im happy.
Tom watched her, quiet and steady.
Just be honest: do you want a quiet registry or do you want to please everyone?
Claire stopped walking.
I want everyone to stop pushing me around.
They wont, Tom said. Invite them to the registry, theyll push for a meal. Get a restaurant, theyll argue about the guest list. Invite everyone, someone will moan about the food. Its endless.
Claire flopped onto the sofa and hid her face in her hands.
Im scared theyll hate me.
Tom sat beside her, put his arm around her shoulders.
They wont. Theyre just used to you doing what suits them, not you. This is your life. Its a shock, thats all.
Claire lifted her head.
Arent you scared?
Terrified, he admitted. But Im done playing by someone elses rules.
She leaned on his shoulder and they just sat in silence until the sky outside went inky.
On Thursday morning they went to the registry office in a taxi. Claire wore a light dress, not bridal, just nice. Tom wore his work suit. He carried a small bunch of seven white roses, bought at a stall by the tube on the way.
It was quiet in the registry office. They were registered swiftly, fifteen minutes tops. A quick signature, a certificate, a quick peck for luck. Claire felt oddly free, yet hollow. She missed someones excitement, somebodys smilebut quickly shooed away the thought.
Outside, Tom suggested, Lets find a café. Sit for a bit.
Two blocks down, they found a tiny coffee shop, ordered cappuccinos and croissants, sat by the window in companionable silence. Then Claire sent her mum a text: Were married now. Everythings fine. Well pop round next weekend.
Reply came in a minute: Alright.
Tom sent his mum the same. No reply.
Claire put her phone down.
Do you think theyll forgive us?
Tom shrugged. Not sure. But we did what felt right.
Claire longed to believe him, but doubt still gnawed.
That evening Lucy came over. She brought bubbly and a posy of flowers.
Congratulations, she said, hugging them both. Im really happy for you.
The three of them sat in the kitchen, drank prosecco from ordinary glasses and ate salad Claire had made the night before. Lucy chattered about work, cracked jokes. Claire watched her, feeling something soften inside. At least someone was there. At least someone showed up.
After Lucy left, Tom hugged Claire at the door.
See? he said. Its alright.
She nodded, though her mums words were still ricocheting through her head.
Ten days on, Claire visited her mother. She brought a homemade apple pie and two jars of strawberry jam. Mum opened the door without a word and let her in.
They sat in the kitchen. Claire sliced the pie, Mum poured tea.
How are you? Claire ventured.
Fine, a short reply.
The silence stretched. Claire took a sip.
Mum, Im sorry things turned out this way.
Mum looked up.
I still dont get why you couldnt have just invited me. Just me.
I was scared it would turn into something I didnt want.
Im not something. Im your mum.
I know, Claire put down her spoon. But I was afraid youd want a restaurant, guests, a frock. Youd be disappointed if I refused. It seemed easier not to ask anyone.
Mum paused.
You think Im that frightful?
No. I think you wish me the best, but your best and mine arent always the same.
Mum sighed, gazing out the window.
It really hurt, you know, she said at last. It hurt knowing you didnt want me there.
I do need you, Claire replied softly. But as my mum, not as an event manager.
Mum dabbed her eyes with a hanky.
Well. Whats done is done.
They finished their tea and chatted about work, Lucy, Tom. When Claire was leaving, Mum hugged her tight and held on.
Just be happy, she said.
Back home, Tom was waiting, eyes questioning. Claire shrugged off her coat and headed to the kitchen.
How did it go? he asked.
Alright, Claire poured a glass of water. Not perfect. But alright.
Tom put his arms round her from behind.
Will she come round?
In time. I think so.
They stood like that for several minutes. Rain trickled down the window outside in thin lines. Claire watched the drops and felt certain theyd done things right. Not perfectly, not without bruisesbut right.
Tom kissed the top of her head.
We managed it, he said.
We did, Claire replied. We really did.
She turned to him, and there they stoodjust the two of themin their kitchen, in their flat, living the life theyd chosen for themselves.







