Mum, Give Us a Smile
Emily never liked it when the neighbours dropped by and asked her mum to sing a tune.
Come on, Mary, sing! Youve got such a lovely voice, and you dance so well too, theyd say. Then Mum would start a song, the neighbours would join in, and sometimes everyone danced right there in the garden.
Back then, we lived in our own cottage in a little English village. It was just me, my younger brother Thomas, and our parents. Mum was always cheerful and friendly. When the neighbours left, shed say, Come round next time! I had a lovely time. They always promised they would.
But I never liked how Mum sang and danced for everyone. I even felt a bit embarrassed, though I couldnt really explain itnot even to myself. I was in year five when one day I said, Mum, please dont sing or dance it embarrasses me. Even now I cant say why, and Im a mother myself.
Mary just said gently, Dont be embarrassed when Im singing, Emily. Be happy. I wont always be young enough to sing and dance
Of course, I didnt understand at the time. Life doesnt always stay cheerful.
When I was in year six and Thomas was only in year two, our dad left us. He packed his bag one day and was gone for good. I never knew what happened between Mum and Dad. It was only when I was a teenager that I finally asked:
Mum, why did Dad leave us?
She only replied, Youll understand when youre older.
She couldnt bring herself to tell me what really happened: that shed found Dad with another womanCaroline, who lived down the road. Thomas and I were at school, and Mum had come home earlyshed forgotten her purse.
The front door wasnt locked, and she was surprised, since Dad was meant to be at work. It was only about eleven in the morning, after all. But when she went inside, she found them together in the bedroom. She was stunned. Dad and Caroline just looked at her, as if to say, What are you doing here?
That evening, when Dad finally came home, there was a terrible row. Thomas and I were playing outside and didnt hear anything.
I packed your suitcase. Take it and go. Ill never forgive you for betraying me, Mum told him.
Dad tried to make it up to her, saying, Come on, Mary. It was a mistake. Cant we just forget it? Think of the children!
But Mum just said, I told you to go, and walked out into the garden.
Dad took his things and left. Mary watched from round the corner, determined never to see him again after what hed done.
Well manage somehow, the children and I, she thought, crying alone. But Ill never forgive his betrayal.
And she never did. She was left alone, raising the two of us. She knew it would be hard, but she never realised quite how hard. She had to take two jobscleaning during the day, and working night shifts at the local bakery. She never had enough sleep, and her smile faded for good.
Even though Dad had moved out, Thomas and I still saw himhe lived just four doors down with Caroline. Caroline had a son about Thomas age; they were in the same class. Mum never forbade us from seeing Dad, and we went round to his house sometimes. Wed play in his garden or living room, but always came home to eat. Caroline never gave us as much as a biscuitplaying was fine, but hospitality ended there.
Occasionally, Carolines son would come over to our place, and the neighbours would look on in surprise. Mum would feed us allshe never bore a grudge against Dads stepson. But I never saw my mother smile again. She was kind and caring, but had closed up inside herself.
Sometimes Id come home from school, longing for Mum to talk with me. So Id chatter about my day and tell her the latest news.
Mum, guess whatBen brought a kitten in his satchel, and it started mewing in class! The teacher couldnt tell who it was, and thought Ben was making noises himself. We all said, Hes got a kitten in his bag! Then she sent Ben and the kitten outside, and called his mum in for a talk!
Mum would only reply, Hmm, I see
I knew nothing made her happy anymore. At night, Id hear her crying for hours, just standing by the window, staring out into the darkness. When I grew up, I understood.
Mum must have been so tired, working two jobs and going without sleep. She probably wasnt getting enough vitamins either. She tried so hard for Thomas and me. We were always neat and tidy, our clothes pressed and clean, I often remembered.
Back then, though, I used to beg her, Please, Mum, just smile Its been so long since I saw you smile.
Mary loved us dearly, but in her quiet, English way. She rarely hugged us, but sometimes praised us for keeping out of trouble and doing well in school. She was a wonderful cook and always kept the house spotless.
I always felt Mums love most when she did my hairshed plait it gently, her hands sad and her shoulders slumped. Her teeth started falling out when she was still quite young; she had them removed but never replaced them.
When I finished school, I didnt consider universityI couldnt leave Mum on her own. I knew it would cost too much for me to study far away, so I took a job at the village shop. I did my best to help Mum; Thomas was growing fast and always needed new clothes and shoes.
One day, Peter walked into the shopa newcomer from another village, nine years older than me. He smiled and asked, Whats your name, love? I haven’t seen you before, are you new here?
Im Emily. And no, I havent seen you either.
Im from a village about five miles up the roadPeters the name.
Thats how we met. Peter started stopping by the shop whenever he was in the area, and would greet me after work in his car. Wed go for walks or just sit in his car talking. Once, he took me to his place. He lived with his mum, who was very ill; hed separated from his wifeshed moved away to the market town with their daughter and hadnt wanted to look after his mother.
Peters place was lovely, with a big house and plenty of land. He laid on a generous spreadcream, meat, chocolates. I enjoyed my visits. His mother stayed in her room.
One day, Peter said, Emily, will you marry me? I really like you. But I should say, I need help looking after my mumIll help too.
I was pleased, but tried not to show it. Caring for his mum didnt bother me in the slightest. Peter waited tensely.
Maybe I shouldat least Ill get to eat good meat and cream, I thought. Out loud I said, Alright then, I will. Peter was delighted.
Im so glad. I love you, Emily. Honestly, I wasnt sure a young girl like you would marry a divorced bloke like me. I promise Ill never treat you badly; well have a happy life.
Peter worked hard and helped with the house and garden. After the wedding, I moved in with him. By that time, to be honest, I didnt want to live at home anymore. Thomas had grown up and was doing a course in car mechanics at the college in town, coming home at weekends and holidays.
Time went on. I really was happy with Peter. We had two sons, one right after the other. I didnt work outside the homethere was plenty to do with the house, the children, and looking after Peters mum, who passed away a couple of years after Id moved in. With such a big house, there was always something needing done. Peter did most of the heavy work.
Dont lug those heavy buckets, Ill do it, hed say. Just milk the cow and see to the chickens and ducks; Ill feed the pigs.
I knew Peter loved us dearlyhe poured all his affection into the children. Mum and I had never had a farm like this, but I managed fine, and he was always generous.
Emily, lets take your mum some meat, cream, and milk. She has to buy everything from the shop, and weve got plenty.
Mary took the food gratefully but never smilednot once. Even with her grandchildren, she was always so serious. We visited often, and I felt sorry for her, not knowing what I could do to bring her back to life.
Emily, maybe you should visit the vicar? Peter suggested. He might give you some advice.”
The vicar promised to pray for Mary and told me, Pray that your mother meets someone good. So I didover and over, I prayed.
One day Mum called me, Love, can you lend me some money? I want to get my teeth done.
My dear Mum, Id pay for it all, I said quickly. But I knew she wouldnt let me. I gave her what she needed, and she promised to pay me back.
Some time went by, and I hadnt visited Mum in person, though we spoke on the phone. Peter had been busy, helping his Uncle Colin move from the market town to a cottage nearby after his marriage broke down and his wife threw him out. Peter helped him sort the paperwork for his new place, which was a lovely, sturdy home.
Peter and I visited Uncle Colin now and again. Then, one evening, Peter came home and said, You know, I think Uncle Colins planning to remarry. I dropped round and overheard him chatting to someone on the phone.
Well, why not? I replied. Hes still young. That house needs a good woman in it.
Soon after, Colin came to invite us over. I want you round for a visit. Ive met my first love againyou know, we were at school together. Shes moving in tomorrow, so come over in a day or two.
A couple of days later, Peter and I arrived at Colins with a few presents. When I walked in, I could hardly believe my eyes. There, standing in front of me, was my mum. She blushed when she saw me, but her face was wreathed in smiles. Mary looked wonderful; shed changed so much for the better.
Mum! Im so happy for you But why didnt you tell us?
I didnt want to say anything until I was sure it would work out.
Uncle Colin, why didnt you tell us?
I was afraid Mary would change her mind But were happy now.
Peter and I were truly glad for them. For the first time in years, Mum was beamingand she smiled all the time.
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