My parents deserve nothing but contempt. I truly regret being born into this family.
I know full well that no one will likely agree with me on this, and most will probably judge me harshly, but I need to get this off my chest. Tell me, why do people who have achieved nothing in life decide to have children? Whats the point? Is it just to create another generation living in the same hardship? Why dont they think about what awaits those children?
I grew up in a family like thatmy parents have never accomplished anything, not even gotten themselves an education, a skilled job, or a home of their own. The only thing they did was bring me and my four sisters into the world. Why? As much as it pains me to admit it, I cannot say Im happy I was born. Thats simply how it is.
Throughout my childhood, I was constantly reminded of how poor we were; kids mocked me, pointing out that my mother worked as a cleaner and my father was a handyman. Even some teachers told me Id never amount to anything and that my path in life would lead me straight to ruin. What on earth did I do to deserve that? All because my parents werent the sort of people they should have been. I cant help but resent them for it, which is why Ive now cut off all contact.
Still, in spite of all that, I managed to pull myself together. I worked hard, got into university, paid my own tuition fees, and built myself a better life. Ive accomplished something now, have a good job, and want for nothing. Yet my past refuses to let me go.
Thats especially true now, since my fiancée comes from a wealthy, well-educated family. Her parents are bright, sophisticated people, and I constantly feel out of place around them. Sometimes Im even embarrassed to show my face. I just dont know what to dopoverty seems to linger with me, lodged deep in my mind, along with all those bleak days when it was thrown in my face.
If theres anything Ive learned, its that even after climbing up from hardship, the marks it leaves behind dont fade so quickly. Its for me to decide whether to let the past shape my future or to draw strength from it, and walk proudly on.
