The Slightly Open Door
He couldnt make sense of what felt odd at first. He just got out of the lift on the ninth floor, fumbled for his keys in his pocket as he walked to his flat, head humming with the residue of prosecco and potato salad. The hallway was unusually quiet for this nightjust the distant echoes of laughter and doors banging from the floor beneath.
At his front door, he pressed his palm against the wall so he wouldnt miss the keyhole, when he caught, out the corner of his eye, a flickering to his left. The neighbours door, just past the wall, was ajar by a hands breadth. Hazy coloured fairy lights shimmered from the hallway inside, dangling over a coat rack, and a faint old song played somewhere deep within, a womans voice singing about snowflakes, snowflakes, dont melt away.
He froze, key held aloft. The landing was chilly, smelled like someones fried sausages merging with the deodorant from his own jacket. Snatches of his friends toasts flickered in his mind: To healthmay we stay young! And, for a moment, he felt acutely hollow. At his friends earlier, it had been loud and crowdedchildren darting about, party poppers set off out the window. Hed laughed and drunk and listened to talk of mortgages, Spain, renovations. When the clock struck midnight, they clinked flutes, embracedsomeone sniffed sentimentally over a third glass. Then the taxi, a quick ride through the half-asleep city, twinkling lights on bare trees, and now he was here, shoes pinching, ears ringing, home alone.
He knew the neighbours by face, not by name. A man about sixty, grey at the temples, a paunch beneath his jumper, always nodding politely in the lift. A woman, a bit shorter, cropped hair, always carrying a netted shopping bag and some parcels. Theyd lived here longer than him; when hed moved in fifteen years ago, their surname was already on the plaque beside the door, but hed never paid real attention. Just a nod, a hello, perhaps a brief exchange about the heating being off. That was it.
He looked at the neighbours slightly ajar door. The music was subdued, lights flickered lazily. Inside, all was dark except for the faint lamp in the corridor. The door sat still.
His first instinct was to carry on. They might be airing out the flat, or forgotnone of his business. He was already slipping his key in his own door, just about to go in, when something jabbed at him. A neighbours door left open on New Years night, when everyones either with guests or locked in against errant fireworks. Old songs from his childhood. And a strange sense that if he simply goes inside, kicks off his shoes, puts on the concert rerun, then thats all his life will be: people just beyond the wall whom he never truly knows.
He drew his key out, listening. No voices, no laughter. The song ended and another, about a blue train carriage, began. He winced; what if someone inside was unwell? Had they fallen and not reached the door? The news always ran stories of old folks found days later. He remembered seeing his neighbour at the chemist a fortnight prior, fiddling with coins, apologising to the queue as he paid for medicines.
All right, he murmured under his breath, and stepped towards their door.
At first, he just pressed his fingers against it; it edged open a smidge, stopping against something soft. Through the gap, he could see more of their hallway: a faded rug, battered boots, womens slippers lined with fluff. The smell of roast chicken and oranges lingered in the cooling air. Coats hung on the rack, the strand of fairy lights draped over hangers.
Hello? he called gently. Um Are you there?
No answer. The music played evenly, the electricity was still on. He rapped his knuckles on the door.
Neighbours? Everything all right?
Inside, there was a dull thud, followed by footsteps. The door swung a few inches further, revealing the womans facecheeks flushed, eyes tired, hairdo festive but tired. Her sparkly jumper shimmered, a delicate chain at her neck.
Oh! she said, immediately reaching for the handle as if to shut it. Sorry, were just
He lifted his hands, shrugging.
I your door was open. I thought well. Is everything all right?
She took a moment, eyed his crooked tie, the bag of salad leftovers in his hand, and recognition flickered.
Oh, youre from Number Nine! she exclaimed. Yes, yes, its fine. Id opened the window a bit
A mans voice called from inside
Whos there, Lydia, more party-poppers?
Neighbour, she shouted back. From our floor.
The door wobbled further, and the man appearedshirt untucked, top button undone, clutching a glass of something amber. Wrinkled face, clear eyes.
Oh, evening, he said. Happy New Year.
And you, replied Anthony, then realised he didnt know their names. Saw your doorthought it might be a draft, maybe youd gone out.
Oh no, the womanLydiasmiled. Habit, really. I nip out with the rubbish, always forget to shut it fully. I got distracted, sorry if we worried you.
He nodded, half-stepping back.
Well, if alls well, Ill be off then. Happy
Hang on, the neighbour said unexpectedly. Drop in for a minute, since you popped by.
Anthony hesitated.
Ive already been round to friends, eaten, drunk. Wouldnt want to impose.
Nonsense, the man waved. Neighbours, arent we? Twenty years of hellosnever once a sit-down. Lydia, shall we offer our guest a quick tipple?
Lydia shrugged, but her gesture was more welcoming than not.
Come in, she said. Nothing fancy. Shoes off, just pop through to the kitchen.
Anthony glanced at his own door. The keys weighed heavily in his pocket; his bag still held leftover salad, plus the bottle of prosecco never opened at his friends. The flat next door felt especially cold now.
Right, he agreed. Just for a moment.
He slipped off his shoes, parked them beside theirs. Not much footweartwo pairs of mens boots, old but well-cared for, a pair of womens boots, no hint of childrens shoes. He took his bag with him out of habit, unsure where to leave it.
Here, let me, Lydia reached for it. What have you got?
Oh, umsalad leftovers and some prosecco. We didnt finish.
Perfect, she said. Were out of bubbles. Call it a gift!
The kitchen was compact but cosy. Plates of salad lingered on the table, a bit of herring and beetroot (English-style), sliced meats, some clementines. Among plates, a vase of pine branches holding stray baubles. Another strand of fairy lights glowing on the windowsill. A woman in her fifties, glasses, soft-eyed, scrolled through her phone, empty glass beside her.
My sister, Jane, Lydia introduced. Jane, this is our neighbour from Number Nine. Er
Anthony, he supplied. Anthony Smith.
Oh, proper! the husband chuckled. Were all first names here. Im Victor. He offered a handshakegrip warm, rough-edged.
Take a seat, Anthony, Jane said, sliding over a stool. Lydiall get you a plate.
Anthony settled, a bit awkward. He noticed a black-and-white photo hanging on the wallyoung Victor in army dress, Lydia beside him, holding a five-year-old boys hand. The fridge sported magnets from towns hed never visited.
Well then Victor splashed clear liquid into little glasses. To opening doors now and then, not just shutting them.
Anthony smiled. It sounded theatrical, but Victors tone was more weary resolve than bravado.
They drank. The vodka was unexpectedly gentle, a warmth in his chest. Through the wall came the chorus of another song, something about three white horses.
Where did you celebrate? Lydia asked, spooning him more salad.
With friends, he replied. Big group, kidslots of noise.
And home alone now? Jane peered over her glasses.
He nodded, not wanting to dive into details.
Daughters up in Manchester with her husbandher own family there. I he trailed off, remembering hed meant to avoid the subject. Its just me, really.
Ah, Lydia said quietly. Our sons down in Kent. Hes off to his in-laws with the grandchildren tonight. Of course, were not upset. Young ones, their own plans.
Victor snorted.
Not upset, he mimicked. Just havent glimpsed the grandkids in half a year. Not upset, though!
Jane smiled, though sadness flickered in her eyes.
Have you been here long, Anthony? she asked, splitting a clementine.
Fifteen years, he replied. Came afterwell, after my divorce. Bought the flat and moved in.
My, really? Lydia shook her head. I thought you were new. You seem youthful.
Anthony grinned.
Thank you. Im fifty-two.
Victors sixty-two, Jane interjected. He insists hes still a lad.
I am, inside, Victor helped himself to another tipple.
They chuckled, laughter soft but genuine. Anthony felt a releaseshoulders lightening. He saw little details: neatly folded napkins, well-worn but clean cloth, stains from beets, a plate with half a cold drumstick left to one side.
I remember you, Lydia said out of the blue. Once you moved in with boxes full of books in the lift. I thoughtweve got ourselves an intellectual neighbour!
That was my moving day, Anthony nodded. Carried it all myself, gave my back no end of trouble.
And I recall you once returning covered in snow, Victor chimed in. About ten years agoI was just entering, you had a Christmas tree caught in the lift doors. I helped you yank it through.
Anthony was surprised. He vaguely remembered that tree, never knew anyone had noticed.
Strange, he mused. We live side by side, but all we knows just scattered little memories.
What more is there to know? Jane shrugged. As long as folk arent noisy and dont dump rubbish.
And dont flood the place, Victor added with a waggle. Weve got those students on seventhey throw parties, we know them too well.
They shared some neighbourly tales, laughed about the rowdy crew below, the old lady from eight who scolds everyone for rubbish in the stairwell. The conversation ambled like warm teaslow at first, then easier.
Anthony mentioned his office job, being sent home for remote work then dragged back inhow he hated the office dos, but turned up anyway. How odd it felt, walking among colleagues mostly younger than his own daughter.
Victor regaled them with stories about the factoryhis workshop closed, pushing him into odd repair jobs. Lydia chimed in with tales of him wallpapering neighbours flats at night to save up for a new fridge, how they used to drive out to their garden plot before selling it.
Jane remembered past New Years Eves in a different flat, a living tree, a house packed with guests. But then everyone got families, their own gardens, their own routines.
We always thought, Lydia said, pouring Anthony a glass of his own prosecco, that you must be some kind of high-flyer. Always so composed. Suit, briefcase
No, nothing grand, Anthony laughed. Just an ordinary manager. Suits company policy. Briefcase for the laptop.
Still, she insisted, You always seemed like someone who knew exactly what he was doing.
He pondered. Did he know? Tonight, sitting in a neighbours kitchen, he felt more like someone whod wandered accidentally into someone else’s life.
And what did you guess I did? he asked.
I thought you were a solicitor, Victor confessed. You walk like a man with business.
Jane tutted.
I guessed you were a teacher. Saw you one day chatting calmly to a boy drawing on the wallyou spoke to him gently, told him not to scribble.
Anthony remembered. That had been a neighbours kid from sixhed just had a quiet word. Forgotten all about it, but here was the memory, cherished.
Odd, isnt it, he repeated, how we build entire biographies from two moments.
And you? Lydia prodded, hand under her chin.
He was embarrassed. Truthfully, hed barely thought at all.
Well he hedged. Supposed you were a regular family. Children, grandchildren, celebrations together.
Victor sighed.
So you imagined were a riotous crowd with an accordion, he said. Realitys just three folks in the kitchen and a telly in the lounge.
And music, Jane added. Cant have New Year without the songs.
They paused. In the room, another tune finished; the radio presenter announced the next.
Used to be a full house, Lydia said softly. Our son, his mates. My folks visiting. We couldnt fit in here, had to move the table into the lounge. Now its everyones gone. My parents gone, our son far away, living his life. Not complainingit just feels strange.
Anthony nodded. He remembered his own old celebrations, married daysa big table, mother-in-law, father-in-law, friends. Then the split, the strange yearssometimes at his daughters, sometimes alone, sometimes joining work colleagues to avoid sitting alone. This year hed chosen friends for the noise, but deep down he felt like a guest at someone elses bash.
When I left my friends tonight, he said, surprising himself, I realised I was coming home as if to a hotel. Things there, but
He trailed off.
I get it, Jane nodded. When my husband died, I lived the same way. All mine, but all temporary.
Lydia squeezed her shoulder. Anthony felt a lump in his throat.
Sorry, he murmured. Didnt know.
No reason you would, Jane replied kindly. We only nod in the lift.
They talked on, time stretching softlynot heavy, just gentle. They swapped old New Year stories: the nineties blackout, heating soup on the gas stove; the night upstairs flooded them, Victor running with a bucket at midnight; Anthonys train journey, celebrating with strangers, clinking plastic cups.
The bottles on the table gradually emptied, salads cooled, music drifted into slow late-night radio. Outside, distant fireworks popped. Past three, and yet no one hurried him away.
Anthony realised he was not happy in the boisterous way of a crowd, but comfortable. He listened to Lydias stories of working in a library, her worries about books gathering dust. Victor joked about his ailments, likening them to a dodgy car engine. Jane detailed her job in the housing companys accounts office, eternally fielding tenant complaints.
You know, Victor said suddenly, I always thought neighbours were like passengers on the Tube. Get on, ride together, get off. Now, here we are, chattingits less scary getting old.
Anthony smiled.
Not ageing thats frightening, he countered. Its being alone.
True, Lydia agreed. Sometimes I wake at night and wonderwhat if? If Victors out, whod know? And you, Anthony, whod pop in?
He wasnt sure what to say. Faces in his mindcolleagues, friends, his daughter. All far off, all busy.
No one, really, he admitted. Work might worry if I didnt show up for a week.
There you go, Jane said. We three herewe could at least swap numbers.
Victor chuckled.
Whats your angle, sis? he asked.
That we should share phone numbers, Jane said serenely. Not for chit-chat, just in case.
Anthony nodded. The idea was simple, but now felt oddly significant.
Lets do it, he said. Seems silly otherwise.
Out came the mobiles. Lydia dictated her number; Anthony tapped in Lydia, neighbour. Victor gave hisVictor, neighbour. Jane too, adding a third person, less anonymous now.
Youd better jot ours down, too, Anthony reminded. You know, if you ever need anything.
Lydia wrote his number on a notepad, stuck it on the fridge with a magnet.
There, she said. Now we know you as Anthony, not just the one from Number Nine.
By four oclock the chat faded, tiredness descending. Lydia yawned, Victor rubbed his eyes, Jane checked the time ever more often.
Best let you get home, Lydia said. Weve kept you up.
Anthony glanced at his phone. Twenty to five. His body felt suddenly leaden.
Yes, I suppose so, he said. Thank you. For
He fumbled for a word.
For company, Jane offered. Its been good for us too.
Victor rose, a bit unsteady.
Ill walk you to the door, he said. Don’t want you lost in the corridor.
They passed into the hallway. The music was little more than a whisper now, the fairy lights drooping wearily.
Anthony slipped on his shoes, shrugged on his coat. Victor leaned on the wall.
Listen, Anthony, he said quietly, if everjust knock, all right? Were right here.
Anthony nodded.
And you too, he said. If you need something carried, fixedcomputer help. Thats my area.
Victor perked up.
Oh, our laptops always freezing. Lydias certain I broke it.
I never actually said you broke it, Lydia called out, just stating facts.
They both grinned.
Sorted, Anthony said. Ill drop in soon and take a look.
Victor shook his hand.
Happy New Year, neighbour, he said. May it bewell, at least as decent as tonight.
And you, Anthony replied. Happy New Year.
He stepped into the landing. Their door closed soft and easy, no longer wary. His own door greeted him with its familiar hush. He opened up, flicked on the light.
Flat was just as alwaysa battered sofa, telly, table with an unfinished mug of tea from the morning. Oranges on the windowsill, an empty vase nearby. Anthony went into his room, hung his coat over the chair-back. The pipes in the kitchen gave off a faint hum. He perched on the sofa, closed his eyes.
Faces floated up: Lydia, worn yet kind; Victor, with his blunt jokes; Jane, watching attentively. Their tales, their laments, their laughter; the realisation that all these years, a slice of life had whirred next door, unexplored.
He looked at the wall behind which their kitchen lay. Lydia might be tidying up, Victor shutting off the music, Jane making up her bed. The wall seemed thinner now, less solid.
He went to the kitchen, poured himself a glass of water, set it back without running the tapso he wouldnt disturb. Returned to his room, turned off the light, lay down. Sleep claimed him quickly; before drifting under, he decided that tomorrow, hed get something nice for tea and pop round. No excuse needed.
Three days on, home from work at dusk, the hallway smelled of boiled potatoes and something sugary. All was quiet on his floor. He climbed, reached for his keyand the neighbours door swung open.
Lydia, in a dressing gown, towel in hand.
Oh, Anthony! she said, switched to you without thinking. Perfect timing.
He paused with his key mid-air.
Everything all right? he asked, instantly concerned.
Oh yes, she smiled. I baked an apple pie and remembered you promised to help with the computer. Fancy popping in a minute? Ill feed you pie.
Warmth uncoiled inside him. He nodded.
Certainly, he said. Let me just put my things down.
He opened his own door, parked his briefcase by the hallway, and, without taking off his coat, returned to Lydia. She held out a steaming pie, scent of apples and real pastry filling the air.
Come in, she said. Victors already cross with the laptop.
He crossed the threshold. The fairy lights still hung by the coat rack, but off now. No music. Domestic and ordinary. Yet Anthony realised that, ever since New Years Eve, that doorleft slightly ajarwould never quite close to him as it had before.
He smiled and stepped through, heading for their kitchen.







